Feelings for Pepper

Pepper this has taken too much thought. I have spent time with you, tried to be sweet to you. Make you smile, giving you space cause I never wanted to crowd you. But I am just not feeling it anymore. Its like I am confused, your words and actions are contradictory. Which to believe? At times you seem to let me in on what’s going on, other times you seem like you want me to leave you alone. From the moment I saw you something about you pulled me in, wanted to be around you and you said the same. Why does it seem like no time was ever spent? I am not usually very expressive when it comes to casual interactions however, seeing you yesterday was a glimpse into what things are going to be like. Am I going to pass you and act like you were not my pepper for a time? Act like I didn’t beat that ass in bowling ? Or Act like our lips never touched? I don’t know. I think so. I use to always keep the way I felt to myself but this time I decided to say how I felt. How would you ever know that I did care about you and just wanted to kiss those places where others left traces of pain. I know you have been hurt, I can tell however just know this; everybody isn’t trying to run games on you. Open up Pepper and let people see the best part of you that you hide.

-MYS