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Its 10:57, so much is going on in my mind. As I sit here thinking about life and work. Do I want to post something so personal on this myspace blog. I don’t think anyone is really going to read it anyway, you know some folks just look at the pictures.

Working 50 hours a week, going to school fulltime and trying to maintain my sanity is a very hard thing to do. Then you add dating in there and the equation is all mixed up. I want to know why people complain about there being any good women left and when they find a good women they push her away. I don’t know why. I am sitting here in a state of pure happiness and disbelief. Time is flying and I am already looking back on things I would do differently like:

-I would say sorry even if it wasn’t my fault
-take more chances with my heart (its suppose to get broken)
-tell the people in my life that I love them
-follow my heart even if it left me on my ass
-forgive those that hurt me and hope the ones I hurt do the same
-get my hair wet instead of worrying about it getting messed up
-jump in a puddle of water with my pumps on just because
-not think about sexual partners they say when your turn 30 you forget anyway
-reach for the sky and be OK with grabbing a cloud
-I would say what was in my heart inside of what was in my head

I have learned that you have to walk away from people, sometimes it just bad timing. I wish I would of seized those moments of bliss, when we were in that gooey stage before getting to the core of the bullshit. I wish I wouldn’t have asked so many questions and just went along for the ride.

Today however I feel differently. I have never had so much peace of mind and assurance. Sometimes I look in the mirror and say WOW, the beauty I capture inside is radiating on the outside. However, I yearn for her, how she will reach out for me a quarter past three in the morning. A am a solo star however, I would love to shine brighter with someone else One day.